No More Tears

Sometimes I think back to my first wife and wonder/ worry about her. Then I remember hours long arguments over something that was never actually expressed. Hidden childhood traumas none of her siblings ever had, her working only minimum wage jobs, me paying ALL the monthly bills while she bought albums, fabric and books as she pleased.

Then there was planning and buying a week's worth of food for two people, only to find it all gone the next day because, "I was HUNGRY!" being spit angrily at me. Not to mention REFUSING to learn how to drive and smugly telling everyone that "Public transportation is all I need, and everyone should use it. Cars are dumb"....only to take work shifts that ended after public transportation stopped and requiring me with the car to sit in a parking lot waiting for her to finally get off work.

How could I forget me working my ass off to pay for attending concerts, movies or whatever for BOTH of us If I wanted to go, I ALWAYS paid her way. If she wanted to go, she bought a ticket and went with a friend, leaving me at home with an empty fridge. That gave me time to do all the laundry because she didn't ever have any change for the machines.

Then there was always the fact that we literally never had sex. Well, ok, ONCE the entire time we were together. Because, god only knows why.

So then I don't feel even slightly bad for fucking the unholy hell out of that slut that actually wanted my dick. I don't feel bad about taking a second job and not being able to pick her up from work. I don't fell bad about taking part in activities without her that she didn't like anyway. Or using that slut to fid me a half a dozen of her sluttly friends to fuck me endlessly instead.

But a year after I finally left she decided "We should go to consoling" to "Try and save the marriage". Forget it, I moved on. It sure has been nice living in the modern world, compared to endlessly talking about what The Beatles did on this day 55 years ago. It really doesn't matter.

And people wonder why I'm damaged and untrusting....

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China White Relationships June 27, 2025 at 11:57 am 0 0