Confussed

I know Im a smart girl; all my report cards come home bearing sparkling As. All the answers I ever needed could be found books. This time the answer I seek cannot be found in a book and it scares me. I always assumed I was straight…up until about a year ago that is. I fell for one of my best friends (a girl). Theres also this guy. Hes really nice but I wasnt about to go out with him while I was still unsure of my own sexual preference. A friend convinced me to take a chance with him and so I did. My relationship with him wasnt able to distract me from my problems so we broke up. He knows how I feel about this other girl yet he still cant get over me. What begun as mere a middle school crush has turned into an obsession. Hes really sweet but its a bit creepy when he kisses me out of nowhere and tells me he loves me—— were not even going out! I still have feelings for my friend but I dont know how to tell her. Questions like: “will we still be friends? and “does she like me back? keep running through my mind. Its really stressful to deal with the burden of this secret in addition to my massive schoolwork load. For the first time in my life Im utterly confused.

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anonymous Other February 13, 2008 at 12:00 am 0 0