Alone

Sometimes I wish I had sumone to talk to... many people think I'm an airhead and call me slow, but its jxt that my mind is wondering nd I'm constantly thinkin, about my life of what I have done and what I will do in the future. I feel sad and depressed most of the time. To bad no one evr knows that though, most think I'm silly and always a happy trooper but I jxt hav trust issues to be honest. I hate wen I'm judged for things wen people don't evn hav a clue. I'm a by soft hearted person also nd very tendered hearted... Sums times I wish I wasn't this way though. It's just that I wish I could tell this to sumone and let all this fustration on out but it's hard opening up to people, well at least for me it is... I feel as if people don't care or I feel as if my issue aren't important at all... But I hav a bad feeling that if I nevr let it out to sumone it's jxt goin to catch me at the wrong time nd I'm gonna break down horribly, I jxt pray god hears me and helps me out with his little problem, nd please lead me to sumone or lead someone for me to raise a friendship tha will allow me to generally be myself nd feel comfortable doing so. I feel bad nd very sad I can't talk to my parents to help me out, they will probably be lik I'm overreacting nd get mad at me and judge me which is wat I hate the most of wat they do. I jxt want them to be proud of me nd I feel lik a disappointment to them. Also I hate the fact that. They don't know how to let me go and grow up and explore the world . I feel as if they are holding me back from a lot and wen I get up and off I'm goin to b very confused cuz I'm nt used to being able to finally be who I truly am it makes me sad. Idk there's many problems with me I just don't know how to put it out right now so I guess this is it for tonight.. Well until tomarw, bye.

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anonymous Other April 11, 2013 at 12:00 am 0 0