Im done

Recently my mother kicked me out of her house. I have no where else to stay besides my boyfriend's apartment. Lately we've been fighting at least once a week. he refuses to discuss anything he doesn't consider logical. Everytime we argue he shuts down any emotional response I have as over the top, he passes out when we fight and can't understand why it upsets me that he can't even stay conscious to finish a discussion. I honestly resent him very much, and yet I have no where to go. He's recently been trying to make me feel bad for not accepting his ultimatums, always angry that I don't trust him or believe him when he says something. He's mean. He says hurtful things. And then it's my fault when I don't immediately Accept him saying that he's just trying to help me and that I just need to calm down and everything will be fine. I kind of hate him. I think I'm just using him for somewhere to stay and letting myself be abused in the process so I know I'll have a roof over my head. I wish I had my own place so I could just leave him. At the same time I just want it to be like it was in the beginning, for him to be sweet and kind and I don't understand why he can't do and say what he did in the beginning. I don't understand why he insist it's my fault that I take offense and get my feelings hurt when he's an asshole. I think I may be letting him take advantage of me, emotionally ignore me, and generally make me feel like shit in the hopes it'll get better or I can hate him neigh to just leave. He's a dick. Fuck him.

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anonymous Dating April 14, 2015 at 12:00 am 0 0