One line away from a Triangle

I am a guy. Not the sexy calvin klein model, soccer player, football player, toned farm boy, clean cut business man. Just a normal guy. 5'9" 200 pounds. Like every guy or girl, I share fantasies. I've been in my relationship for 2 wonderful years, but unfortunately made some mistakes. A drunk threesome with 2 girls. My significant other and another
We began like any other "bleeding heart" couples in high school. Suffering from infidelity. We swore never to fall in the path of it. A good 10 months went by like the essence of a river channeling trough the side of a mountain. An elegant journey of peace and great strength. We always had each others back and supported each through our decisions in life. So far so good. Until that drunk sexual triangle.
"Unknowingly" agreeing to fuck each other on our anniversary while on a concert trip. They began the journey towards intimacy. Shortly after I happily joined in. My mind screaming " HELL YEAH". Like any guy I was reving up to fucking these two girls. As this thriangle went one I began to loose the urge to "fuck" but instead I wanted to be intimate with these two. I wanted to make love to both, I wanted to give myself to both. I loved it.
Coming to our senses the day after. We blamed it all on the alcohol. My girlfriend torn by the decision, the other girl realizing what she had done, and I was trying to grip the feelings.
Hard feeling were shared but eventually forgiven, but those feelings lingered in me. Unspoken for nearly a year. Until I gave hints on it to my partner. At first I just left the feeling as me being horney and wanting other girls, but that went away as I flirted with other girls and messed around but not coitus. I didn't get those feelings, but I chased the idea of wanting others.
I asked my partner and tried to explain my desired. It was unfortunate for she felt as I was no longer interested in her. Which was completely wrong. I do lover her and cherish her. But my lust kept stabbing for that feeling once again.
I have asked for an open relationship, but my partner is completely ditered away from for she only wishes to be intimate with me and no one else. I want nothing but the best for her and to never cause her any great pain. But I want to fill this gap of wanting another woman to share my girlfriend and myself with. It is not a one night thing either. I want to be with the two as a relationship.
I do not know what I should say or feel. All I ask if for a bit of reason or an answer. I want a triangle. I want two women for me and for my partner to be happy. But a relationship is not just made of one persons happiness. (shit of a story but i am sorry)

I ask for your help
Alfredo

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anonymous Dating November 09, 2015 at 12:00 am 0 0