Bad years

On July 16th I'll be 24 years old and still can't comprehend why I was treated so bad as a kid. From the time I was 9 until I was 16 I only remember seeing my mother twice. During those years I lived with my mom's cousin Linda who not only hated my mom but seemed to take it out on me. Linda was no angel either and like my mom did drugs and had numerous boyfriends. At a young age I thought I was just a bad son and think Linda and her kids hated me because my father was some Asian guy who I still have never met or at least don't remember if he was ever around. Linda had 3 kids Kyle was the oldest and 7 years older than me. Then it was Sara 5 years older and Samantha almost 3 years older than me. Samantha was the nicest to me but Kyle and Sara hated me as much as their mother. Kyle would beat me up and pants me in front of his friends and sisters. Linda would spank me for next to nothing with my shorts and underwear around my ankles. She did this in front of her friend Melanie many times but didn't hesitate doing it in front of the girls and some of her boyfriends.

It was so embarrassing I made it worse by crying in front of them like a little baby. Kyle was worse then Linda because he would make me strip in front of his friends and most of the time there would be girls or his sisters there. He did it when Linda was out or at work mostly but sometimes he would make me strip or knock me down and pants me out back in front of the other kids. He did this even when Linda was home sometimes. Linda didn't care when Sara and Samantha saw me naked but once when I was 12 I walked in on Sara and saw her naked. It wasn't my fault because she didn't have the door locked but Linda spanked me naked in front of the girls and Kyle that day. I read stuff in these sites where guys get aroused having girls see them naked but not me. I guess I was like a nerd as a kid but every time it happened I was so embarrassed I would shake and cry. I think Samantha felt sorry for me but Sara encouraged Kyle to make me strip or pants me in front of her and her friends. It was like a big joke to them. Sara liked to embarrass me and lots of times used a butter knife to open the bathroom door while I was in the shower. She did it many times with 1 or 2 of her girlfriends with her. Like the idiot I was I would just cry and let them look at me. There were times Kyle would pants me and sit on my chest for a long time while the other kids just laughed at me.

It was right before I became 16 that Linda finally got in touch with my mother. The worst thing is it wasn't that my mom wanted me back but I'm pretty sure she made my mother take me back. I thought maybe she stopped doing drugs but that never happen either. I lived with her until I was 20 and during those years there were times I didn't see her for a week or two and had little or nothing to eat and no money. I got lousy jobs wherever I could and now finally got a job last year with United Parcel Service that pays good. I haven't seen my mom in over six months and anymore don't care to. I only live a few miles from Linda's house and don't see to many people from there often. What is still humiliating for me is when I occasionally see Sara or Samantha. Kyle I haven't seen in years but sometimes I see some of the other girls that were around when Kyle made me strip or just pants me in front of them. Its still embarrasses me today that I was unable to stop it. I do say hello to Samantha when I see her but Linda and Samantha I ignore when I do see them which thankfully is seldom. I have a fantastic girlfriend now and a nice apartment. I did tell her some of the stuff I went through but she knows I'm not the wimp I used to be. I still don't understand why they despised me so much especially since how their whole family was dysfunctional and immoral.

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Gary Weird July 02, 2019 at 10:18 am 0 0