girlfriend doesnt understand my reaction

I recently told my girlfriend that, a few years ago, I was homosexually raped. I had been walking home late one night when I felt a knife at my throat. I was taken down a quiet back alley where I was forced to strip and then engage in anal sex. When I had recovered from the initial shock of being penetrated, I started working with him during the sex. He had been taking it slowly and I just wanted to get him out of me so, to hurry things up, I started briskly thrusting my lower body to stimulate him. He told me to stop, but he still climaxed fairly quickly. I felt sick as he came, but he was going to ejaculate into me anyway, so I had merely speeded up the inevitable. My girlfriend just can't understand this - to her, it's like I participated willingly in the sex act. She just can't understand that, if I hadn't done it, my rape could have gone on for ages. Can she really be so dumb as to think I was getting off on it?

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Dating December 10, 2016 at 12:00 am 1 0