Idk

im a teenager. you make think all teens are alike, its a stafe in life and whatever, but it's not that simple. people always ask me why im so emotional. but truth is, no body knows what i go through, everyday. i'm so close to cutting, i have no idea who to lean on. my friends are shallow typical girls. i play soccer, so i dont relate to their first world girl probs. im not a girly type of a girl. this is also one of the reasons im bullied by boys. boys in my school bully me a lot and make fun of me. i admit i know that i am pretty and i do not have a weight problem, at all. i am also intelligent with an average of 91%. but sometimes, it takes more than just that to please society. i got played by a lot of boys, though i am young, i have delt through some very difficult times. the guy that i like currently is a big jerk and doesnt treat me well, he called me names, talked behind my back, and i ignored him and fought with him. he apologized, but his bestfriend told me that he talked about me once again. i notice how people are. they're so shallow sometimes. all they care about is reputation and how people see them, and not how they see themselves. my family isnt helping either. my mother is very religious, although very helpful at other times. my older brother is very violent with me and thinks that i am perfect, he doesn't know what i go through. i've been called so many names, i dont remember the last time someone actually said my real name. by what you've read, you'd think the problem is from me. but honestly, im the best friend, girlfriend, sister, and daughter if i was treated well. if asked, the people i care about would tell you about how nice i am. the only people i can count on are my cousin and my two best friends.(it kindof worries me that they're all boys, im not a tomboy, on the contrary though). Even if I tell them everything and I trust them with my life, they will never understand what i feel. I cry a lot, if not once a day, once every 2days. I have Anemia, i get sudden unexpected dizziness and headaches but i try to ignore it. Sometimes i dont eat anything all day and other days i eat until im full. Also, i don't care about my appearance too much, so even if i was pretty, i dont know how to fix myself. i just wanted to let this all out. i need someone to say this to, but i didnt think anyone would listen so i just labeled it as a confession.

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anonymous Other March 24, 2013 at 12:00 am 0 0