Too Much

My wife is so under confident it's killing me. At every turn she has to be begged to take part in normal, human activities. She gets aggressively angry to be asked to do so most of the time. It's exhausting me on a daily basis. She is endlessly convinced that myself and others are lying to her about everything. There is never a time that I am not accused of "Thinking about somebody else." or "Am probably cheating on her.".

If I see a notable vintage car and take too long of a look at it, then it means I am looking at a woman somewhere I haven't seen and would rather be with her. I have lost count of how many times in traffic she has hit me hard thinking I was lusting for some unknown woman I never saw because I am paying attention to traffic and never saw them. Maybe one day she'll hit me and I'll end up totally the car. I don't care any more.

Seems like many women somehow think that being shy/ under confident is attractive. It is NOT. She endlessly taxes the bond of our marriage with this kid of crap. I have always shaken my head and disagreed with her. She pronounces that she wants a divorce (only to take back her words a few days later...), and ruins yet another evening together with her anger and accusations. The last time I found myself thinking that maybe I should just say yes. I thought about a half a dozen women I've known in my life that I probably should have married that became fairly successful and wondered why I didn't get more involved with them. Some are still single, and I couldn't stop thinking I should give up and later try and date them. Marriage is a trap for men. No matter how hard you try at it, when the woman goes crazy ad ruins it, it's always the man that pays yet again when it ends. Probably better to have gone queer than this. Wish I were fucking dead.

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Anthony Relationships January 22, 2020 at 11:26 am 2 0